Thursday, August 6, 2009

dogs

when i grew up, i was crazy about pets.. especially dogs!
i felt 'm good at making friends with animals.. any damn dog, however gruesome, i'd pet it in no time. i sometimes had a narcisst feeling about this, i imagined that dogs had an innate sixth sense to judge a mans morality.. that dogs were friendly to good people.
passionately.. i read books on training dogs, dog-story novels n saw many dog movies. my dad even let me get a mongrel- a dog with a pedigreed alsatian mom called julie n dubious paternity. i relished every momment of bringing my dog up.. from mornin jogs and immunisation and bathing the dog to pickin up his poo from near our door and mending destroyed furniture. definitely some happy great memmories and great times together. the hilt was naming the dog buck, yeah, vide call of the wild. some years later the dog met with a fatal accident and i had the honour of buryin him. my love for dogs was still unquenched, and i remained a true blue canine fan.
however, unknowningly, of late, i dont love dogs.. n dont care about pettin those handsome creatures. the more world i see, the less has my liking for dogs become.
dogs love unconditionally. a dog loves you regardless of what you are. and now, i have begun to detest this. i have begun to believe that unconditional love is unworthy of appraisal. if i want to be loved, it should be for what i am, not regardless of what i am. this is not really an ego trip. i know i am a contorted twisted wierdo, and with ugly shades of my own.. not unlike any other meanie you'd find in a slum. but thats me. i dont want someone to wag his tail cuz he eats out of my hand and stays under my shelter.
probably, a honest hate and contempt is worthier than unjustified, blind or faked love.

10 comments:

  1. Your post has got me thinking. Some of your points are indeed worth contemplating, especially the ego trip and fake love bits.

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  2. thanks vikram! you 'd be surprised what provoked my initial train of thought.. goons and some really bad people i have had the pleasure of knowing.. have handsome dogs who would die for their master..
    and i could have wrote a lot more.. about the happy times with my dog..
    or about how pets are instinctively driven to protect the master.. or to please his master, literally, lick his feet.
    but in hindsight.. the more blogs i read about dogs.. the more i realise.. that love isnt really about understanding the logic behind it. its just relishing whatever there is. whatever it brings.

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  3. A very different take and like Vikram said, it has got me thinking. I have a dog, a stray, which I adopted around 6 years ago and off late, she has not been staying with us. She has a second home. So, maybe even dogs have learnt to be not so loyal. Yet, her love remains.

    A good read, infact a very good one!

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    1. thanks a lot pooja! i try to express my thoughts, n then sometimes.. i succeed:)
      so far as loyalty goes, i feel its instinctual in dogs.. to be loyal to the master, not judgemental.
      and that seems desirable and yet not deserved. and from this dichotomy came out the blog!

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  4. thanks pooja! glad you enjoyed reading it.. besides your story of adoption reminded me of another sweet dog incident of my life.. "waghya- dogs part two".. coming soon:)

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  5. A strong post in a short post.
    loved the way you described, i have no pets...
    Trust me, we must learn the meaning for LOYALTY from animals.

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    1. thanks for stopping by deepak, and btw, your blogs make an entertaining read.. keep up the good work bro!

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  6. I think I know what you mean - I am a dog lover too though I continue to feel very strongly for dogs. As they say, if you want someone to love you, get a dof; if you want to love someone, get a child :)

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    1. :P and if you want to be confused about loving and being loved, get a wife :) jus kiddin, thanks a lot for stopping by!

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